Back from a break

For those of you following...I'm still not pregnant.

Last month just didn't work out for us, and it seems that my meds were not working as well as hoped. So...this month, the doc has decided to increase my meds. I was totally okay with that, thinking, "Okay...they'll probably double it." Wrong! More like QUADRUPLE it. Yup. I will now be taking four times the medication.

Now, this doesn't seem like a good thing, but at this point, I am okay with whatever. Heck, I'd take 10 times the meds if it would work. The problem is, if this doesn't work, I don't know what we are going to do. Insurance does not cover ANY infertility treatments for me, so it is going to be all out of pocket. If these meds don't work, the next step would be injectibles. Last I checked, that can run upwards of $800-$1000 per month. Pretty sure we can't afford that.

So...we are still sending up prayers and hoping for the best. If I don't get pregnant soon, we'll have to re-evaluate and figure out what path to take. But that's the future. Right now, I am just trying to take it a day at a time (sometimes an hour at a time, minute by minute). Meds will start on Friday, and we have to wait and see if they are working.

In the mean time, I have been told of more pregnancies in my circle of friends, and asked to help plan a shower for another. While I am so happy about it all, it is a challenge to my emotions. Most days, I am perfectly fine. However, it seems that when I am least expecting it, the wall comes crashing down, and my emotions spill out along with big, salty tears. Then, I collect myself, and try to keep moving forward, leaning on the truth that God is using me in His unique and mysterious way.

For all of you who have been praying, please know that I deeply appreciate every word that you send to God. Please keep praying. I know that God is working here, and I have faith that He does answer prayers. For any of you who haven't ever prayed for me...please start now. The way I look at it, there is never too much prayer!

Prayers needed...

So...I find that I am getting more and more anxious.

I have an appointment this Saturday with our specialist. Looking to see if the meds are working, and preparing for the next step in our journey.

Please pray for us.