Prayer request...

Just when you think things are turning around...

We were really hopeful this month. I had decided that I wasn't going to watch the calendar, and just try to take things a day at a time. Once I realized how long it had been since I last checked the calendar, I was curious. So, I took a home test. Negative. So I waited some more. Then I went to the doctor. Negative.

It seems that my body has decided to tease me. It allowed me to think that our miracle had finally happened, only to let me down later.

I just don't get it.

I'm not going to lie. I have been fighting the urge to have my own little pity party. Since my appointment on Monday, I have just kind of been...off.

So here I am. Sitting at a computer and sharing this with all of you who care to read it. I am asking for your prayers. Prayers for strength, wisdom, and peace.

A Thankful Heart

So often I sit at the computer and try to think of something to add to my blog. Most of the time, I just sit there. I stare at the screen and realize...I've got nothin. I never want my blog to be meaningless dribble, but all too often I just don't think that my words make much of a difference or impact.

Well, today, I hope that is different.

I sat down today and decided to do a quick review of all of my past posts. Not just the things that I wrote, but the comments that were added later. The thought was, doing this will help inspire me to write something new. And it did.

I feel that I need to take the time to recognize...I am so very blessed!

I am not wealthy, at least not by American standards, but I have what I need.
I am not in the greatest shape, but I am relatively healthy.
I am not the most popular person, but I have REAL friends.
I am not the smartest, but I am still learning.

All too often, we complain about all of the things that we do not have. Things that we want. Things that would make life so much better. And yet, if we would just take the time to REALLY look at our lives, we are blessed far beyond what we deserve.

The one place that I can see this the clearest is with my friends.

In some of my darkest times, I have had wonderful people come to my rescue. They may not have provided money or food or tangible things like that, but they were my support. I have been able to lean on my friends and they have supported me without even blinking. My friends have been there for me, and never asked for anything in return.

I am so blessed!!!

I only wish I could let all of you know just how much I love my friends, and how much I appreciate them. But there are no words to adequately explain how I feel about each and every one of you.

Thank you seems so small.
So inadequate.
But it's all I have.

Thank you for being there for me.
...for loving me.
...for holding me accountable.
...you for laughing with me.
...for crying with me.
...for celebrating with me.
...for praying with me.
...for putting up with me and all of my faults.
...for showing me Christ.

I am truly blessed!