Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Guide me

Why does life have to be filled with so much drama???

I just want to sit back, relax and enjoy my family and friends.
Is that really so much to ask?

I'm tired.
My head hurts.
My heart hurts.
I'm sick of lies.
I wish I could just fix things.
I wish I could just fix people.

But people make their own decisions. People make their own mistakes. I know that I have made mine. All I can do is love.

But when does love become enabling?

There is so much whirling around in my head right now.

God...help me find the right things to say. Help me make the right decisions. May my words, my thoughts, and my actions be all about You. May they glorify You. Take away any undo anger or frustration. Guide my heart. Guide my feet. Guide my hands. Guide my tongue.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Brrrrr........

I am FINALLY getting feeling back in my toes!

This weekend was the annual Sugar Mound Festival. As always, I was looking forward to it. It is always a weekend of shopping a good food, and a lot of fun spending time with my parents. One of the best parts...I get to see one of my best friends from high school there every year.

I look forward to this weekend every year! Amy and I get together to shop and talk, catching up on the happenings of the past year. (Yes, I am aware that there are ways of communicating throughout the year. But in person it is just so much better!)

There was one down side to this year's festival. It was COLD!!!

I am very much a "fall person." I look forward to the changing colors, the cooler weather, and eating anything and everything pumpkin! However, this October has been quite cold. It seems that we went from the sauna to the freezer. Ugh! Hopefully it will settle back in to the season I love.

Cool, crisp days with plenty of sunshine...oh how I miss you!

Thursday, October 01, 2009

New month...new possibilities

So...it's a new month. And any time that there is a new beginning, there are new possibilities. Thank God!

The end of September brought the disappointment of not being pregnant. We have been trying again since July. I know that it has only been a few months, but it seems so much longer. Three months have passed. Three months of negative tests. Three months of hoping and praying. Words cannot accurately express the pain, sadness, and disappointment.

But, I will not dwell on the negative. I must press forward. Like I said, it's a new month. A fresh start. Not only for our dream of a growing family, but growing in Christ.

I was listening to the radio this week, and heard the dj's talking about their challenge for the month of October. There are 31 days in October, and 31 chapters in Proverbs. The goal...one Proverb each day. One new look into the word of God.

So here I am. October 1st, 2009. Proverbs 1.

Join my on my journey through Proverbs. I would love to know what God shows you through these scriptures.